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.All you need todo is not to hide from your own mental powers, not to suppress them, but to release them.This we cando together.Now, doesn't that strike you as right, as the right thing to do?""I don't know," Orr said.When Haber spoke of using, employing his mental powers, he had thought for a moment that the doctormust mean his power of changing reality by dreaming; but surely if he'd meant that he would have said itclearly? Knowing that Orr desperately needed confirmation, he would not causelessly withhold it if hecould give it.Orr's heart sank.The use of narcotics and pep pills had left him emotionally off-balance; he knew that,and therefore kept trying to combat and control his feelings.But this disappointment was beyond hiscontrol.He had, he now realized, allowed himself a little hope.He had been sure, yesterday, that thedoctor was aware of the change from mountain to horse.It hadn't surprised or alarmed him that Habertried to hide his awareness, in the first shock; no doubt he had been unable to admit it even to himself, toencompass it.It had taken Orr himself a long time to bring himself to face the fact that he was doingsomething impossible.Yet he had let himself hope that Haber, knowing the dream, and being there as itwas dreamed, at the center, might see the change, might remember and confirm.No good.No way out.Orr was where he had been for months alone: knowing he was insane andknowing he was not insane, simultaneously and intensely.It was enough to drive him insane."Would it be possible," he said diffidently, "for you to give me a posthypnotic suggestion not to dreameffectively? Since you can suggest that Ido.That way I could get off drugs, at least for a while."Haber settled down behind his desk, hunched like a bear."I very much doubt it would work, eventhrough one night," he said quite simply.And then suddenly booming again, "Isn't that the same fruitlessdirection you've been trying to go, George? Drugs or hypnosis, it's still suppression.You can't run awayfrom your own mind.You see that, but you're not quite willing yet to face it.That's all right.Look at it thisway: twice now you've dreamed, right here, on that couch.Was it so bad? Did it do any harm?"Orr shook his head, too low-spirited to answer.Haber went on talking, and Orr tried to give him hisattention.He was talking now about daydreams, about their relationship to the hour-and-a-half dreamingcycles of the night, about their uses and value.He asked Orr if any particular type of daydream was Generated by ABC Amber LIT Converter, http://www.processtext.com/abclit.htmlcongenial to him."For example," he said, "I frequently daydream heroics.I am the hero.I'm saving a girl,or a fellow astronaut, or a besieged city, or a whole damn planet.Messiah dreams, do-gooder dreams.Haber saves the world! They're a hell of a lot of fun so long as I keep 'em where they belong.We allneed that ego boost we get from daydreams, but when we start relying on it, then our reality-parametersare getting a bit shaky.Then there's the South Sea Island type daydreams a lot of middle-agedexecutives go in for them.And the noble-suffering-martyr type, and the various romantic fantasies ofadolescence, and the sado-masochist daydream, and so on.Most peoplerecognize most types.We'vealmost all been in the arena facing the lions, at least once, or thrown a bomb and destroyed our enemies,or rescued the pneumatic virgin from the sinking ship, or written Beethoven's Tenth Symphony for him.Which style do you favor?""Oh escape," Orr said.He really had to pull himself together and answer this man, who was trying tohelp him."Getting away.Getting out from under.""Out from under the job, the daily grind?" Haber seemed to refuse to believe that he was contented withhis job.No doubt Haber had a lot of ambition and found it hard to believe that a man could be without it."Well, it's more the city, the crowding, I mean.Too , many people everywhere.The headlines.Everything.""South Seas?" Haber inquired with his bear's grin."No.Here.I'm not very imaginative.I daydreamabout having a cabin somewhere outside the cities, maybe over in the Coast Range where there's stillsome of the old forests.""Ever considered actually buying one?" "Recreation land is about thirty-eight thousand dollars an acre inthe cheapest areas, down in the South Oregon Wilderness.Goes up to about four hundred thousand fora lot with a beach view."Haber whistled, "I see you have considered and so returned to your daydreams.Thank God they'refree, eh! Well, are you game for another go? We've got nearly half an hour left.""Could you.""What, George?""Let me keep recall."Haber began one of his elaborate refusals."Now as you know, what is experienced during hypnosis,including all directions given, is normally blocked to waking recall by a mechanism similar to that whichblocks recall of 99 per cent of our dreams.To lower that block would be to give you too manyconflicting directions concerning what is a fairly delicate matter, the content of a dream you haven't yetdreamed.That the dream I can direct you to recall.But I don't want your recall of my suggestions allmixed up with your recall of the dream you actually dream.I want to keep 'em separate, to get a clearreport of what you did dream, not what you think you ought to have dreamed.Right? You can trust me,you know.I'm in this game to help you
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